Feeling fear is from the enemy. I have been afraid to feel joy for so long. Afraid that some how it will be snatched away from me. Almost like I’ll jinx myself if I allow myself to seek joy. I have been learning over the last few months that if I seek God, the joy will follow. I am learning the beauty of balance. I’m learning I don’t have to know the end result of a situation or relationship, I just need to enjoy the now! I can spend my time being anxious or in fear that something I want will not work out, or I can enjoy the moment and the beauty with in each one of those moments. I can spend my time trying to get affirmation, or I can be confident in the fact that I am a daughter of the king of creation and if I will just breath and relax I will be affirmed in HIM!
I have learned that he gives and he takes away, it’s not always fair or fun, but he has a master plan!
I have to remind myself daily to stop living in fear, not because bad things won’t happen because truth is…bad stuff happens, but because I trust and have faith in God and he has carried and will carry me through those things.
By the time I am finished writing this I will have 10 things flood over me that I can fear if I choose to. Fear is from the enemy, peace is from God! Who will I choose to believe today?

If we have a further end in view, we do not pay sufficient attention to the immediate present: if we realize that obedience is the end, then each moment as it comes is precious.
-Oswald Chambers

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Rom 15:13

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Prv 13:12

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Rom 12:12